Me: *fasting for so long i can’t even comprehend eating*
Stomach: …hi
Me: >.>
Stomach: …
Me: …
Stomach: sooo you just gonna forget about me or-
Me: *turns up music whilst looking at thinspo*
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Me: I want my clothes to be too big for me.
Me, when the clothes are too big on me: The fuck is this bullshit.
Me with my size 10 leggings… I used to like them ):)
me: what do you want?
my brain: f r i e s
me: oh ok sounds g-
my brain: SKINNY NOW
me: what i thought u wanted fries
my brain: ch ips PIZZA thiigh gap choCoLate DAINTY b ing e binge BINGE pretty and thin NOW
my ed: how bout we just starve?
me: …
my brain: …
me: k sure
to a normal person, eating 1000 calories before 3pm means it’s an average day.
to me, it means that I am weak.
to me, it means that I lost control.
to me, it means no more food for the rest of the day.
to me, it means an extra workout.
to me, it means that today I completely failed.
Eating 1000 calories at all is a complete failure
me: *obsessively weighs myself*
me: *counts every calorie*
me: *fasts for 24+ hours regularly*
me: *lies about eating to loved ones*
also me: I don’t have an eating disorder, i’m faking it
Me: I want my clothes to be too big for me.
Me, when the clothes are too big on me: The fuck is this bullshit.
Me: “oh shit I gained a lot of weight”
Me: “what should I do to calm myself down?”
Me: …
Me: …
Me: *binges*
ME: I don’t have a problem
ALSO ME: *sees an 8 year old kid*
I wish my legs were as tiny as theirs
ME TO ME: girl you definitely have a problem
someone who genuinely cares about and loves me: you know you can always talk to me right?
me, knowing full goddamn well I will never ever tell them all the shit going on with me: aw thanks ily I will
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